Ugly Hearts

Sometimes the reasons why we don’t like someone else show that our heart is uglier than the person’s shortcomings.


Now Listening: King of my Heart

Sometimes you come across a song just when you need it.

After a series of disappointing events, not major life changing, but the accumulation of disappointments was beginning to get me, and I found myself questioning why God wouldn’t just let me have a break. It felt like most times in His quest to make us more like Son, Jesus Christ, he forgets that we need a break from the trials.

Does everything have to be so hard? Are there some good things that come easy?

Last Sunday the choir in church sang this song and as I sang along, I remembered, remembered that God is wiser and bigger and stronger, I remembered that He loves me, I remembered all the many blessings He has given me, I remembered how past disappointments have turned out to be blessings in disguise. And with each verse I sang, I felt my heavy heart become lighter.

This will be my anthem even though the storms of life rage around me.


God is good and He’ll never let me down.


If I were to sum up 2017 in one word, it would be DRAMA! Oh my God!

From job uncertainties to last minute miracles, from disappointments and betrayals to second chances and forgiveness, from being overwhelmed with a new job, new language, new country to coping with peculiar colleagues, from drowning in routine to new adventures, from reconnecting with old friends to meeting new ones.

I wish I could say that I went through the ups and downs with the right attitude, but I was not always on my best behaviour. Thankfully it’s about Christ’s redeeming work and not my performance rate.

I received answers to prayers that I didn’t realize were answers because I had given up on expecting answers. But God surprised me, and one lesson I learnt is to trust that the Lord has heard my prayers and knows my needs and will answer in His own way and time.

Going into 2018, I look forward to what adventures await me.